Noodles and Beef

So because it seems in the wake of the fucking tragic death of the completely lovely Jack Chapman, (or as Tank as he had been rebranded) there’s a lot of stories coming out about the treatment of Jack from his partner Dylan aka Noodles & Beef. Usually I would never get involved in online drama like this, but this is beyond drama - a good mans life has ended horribly, and I experienced firsthand some highly suspicious and downright unsympathetic behavior from his master/life partner, Dylan at a time when frankly if my life partner had passed away, I’d be inconsolable with grief.


So adding my voice to the chorus for the official record, here’s my account of an exchange I had with Dylan/Noodles yesterday regarding the rumors of Jack’s death with accompanying screenshots.


I have been friends with Jack for a long time and have chatted with Dylan and his other pups on many many occasions. Close enough to them to receive a Christmas card from them last year but not close enough to have met them IRL. That kinda close. Anyway, we heard the terrible news on Monday that a previous employer of Tank had released a letter saying Tank had passed away. Being a friend I was obvs concerned but also knowing the online hate that surrounds those guys - didn’t want to take it as truth immediately. Mutual friends reached out to Dylan’s husband Dan - who assured us all almost immediately that Tank was apparently “fine”. Good news. But a day later the rumors were still around so I reached out to Dylan via Facebook to notify him of these rumors and to suggest to perhaps post a pic of tank happy and healthy to stop the shitty gossip machine. At first Dylan was grossed out and shocked by the news - asking “why is everyone so obsessed with us?!” I said I was happy to hear it wasn’t true and that was it. (Screenshot attached)


An hour later, I get another message from Dylan saying that Tank was actually “rather upset” about the rumours and that he would appreciate I tell him the source of them. (Screenshot attached) When I told him everything I knew and confirmed I couldn’t give him a direct name to follow up with, Dylan became demanding and rude suggesting myself and my friends were spreading the gossip (screenshot attached) and he would let Tank know how awful I am (Screenshot attached) and implied Tank didn’t consider me a friend anymore. (Screenshot attached) Then both noodles and Tank blocked me on all social media. and I considered the dramatic story over.


Two hours later Dylan sent out his oddly delayed newsletter - showing off his modded genitals and rating dance parties and oddly, considering the current rumor about Tank, a joke saying that people were starting rumours about HIS OWN death. (Screenshot attached)


A few hours later, I see the announcement on Facebook - the official statement of Tanks death. And I am gobsmacked. Judging by the timeline of events - the release of the letter from Tank’s ex employers over the weekend (a fact that has since been confirmed direct from the source) - Tank being in hospital and passing away - it would seem Tank passed away sometime over the weekend - 48 hours or more previous to all the above events. Which means instead of Dylan replying to my initial message about the gossip with a confirmation and respectful request for silence on the subject - he was far more concerned with gossip and damage limitation, then lying by pretending to me Tank still alive and was “upset and concerned”, then entering and managing Tanks social media post death to block me, AND encouraging his other pups to lie AND promoting his image via his newsletter whilst making insensitive jokes…it was honestly shocking.


I have never ever witnessed such sociopathic behavior. The loss of a loved one would disable me in every way. This lack of empathy is shocking and it’s for this reason - along with the very public humiliation of Jack in the past from Dylan (that can still be read about here - https://noodlesandreceipts.tumblr.com/) that I am being vocal and posting this in respect for the loss of life of a truly lovely man. This is for the record. The internet never forgets.

Noodles and Beef

As a Disclaimer I'm saying this as myself and NOT ICBB

At one point I was a boy to Dylan Hafertepen aka Noodles and Beef. I was gullible and fell hard and quick.

I was restricted from communicating with anyone from his "Family". Last year I was able to connect with Tank. It only happened after Tank left. We grew close during Dore weekend when I worked on his boots. Shortly after that weekend Tank shared that he was being sued.

About a month later, Tank was back with Dylan and I like many others were blocked. Dylan is a manipulative person. Looking at things, he is not what a Sir or Master should ever be.

RIP tank. I'll let your words speak for themselves.

During one of his disconnections, Tank was compelled to widely announce that any claims he had made about legal or other threats that Dylan had served against him were "malicious lies". This is photographic evidence of the legally spurious conversion-of-assets tort Dylan filed against him, which constituted legal harassment.

Dylan Hafertepen's communication cannot ever be held to be in good faith. He may or may not be a murderer, but he is most certainly a liar.

#hisnameisJack

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Saddened by the sudden loss of my friend Jack, a.k.a. Tank. Jack was an incredibly sweet, shy, sensitive person who had an endless reserve of affection and wanted to see the best in people. I'm heartbroken that I won't get to see him grow old, mature as a person, and develop fully into himself, like I know he would have if he had been given more time.

Jack was in a highly visible BDSM relationship structured around one master controlling him and several other submissive "pups"-- a relationship that exuded suspect power dynamics and has for years been scrutinized by third parties online. Like many who had an opinion about it, I can't say I knew all the inner workings of Jack's personal life. But I can and will say that Jack described this relationship as abusive and manipulative to me, during a time when he was single and had been cast out of the fold by his master.

He later returned to the relationship, taking back everything he'd told me in a bizarre prepared statement, and abruptly cut off contact with me and a number of other outside friends. I wish deeply that I had been a better friend to Jack and made more of an effort to reach out after being cut off.

I'm not certain of the cause of death, but there has been some understandable speculation (given that he was a seemingly healthy 28 year old) that it may have been related to the silicone injections in his scrotum that Jack had gotten to please his master. Whether or not it was a factor his death, Jack expressed regret over those injections to me. He told me the silicone made sexual function incredibly difficult and that the body modification was impossible to reverse, effectively leaving him impotent.

He had been transformed into a trophy, salivated over and validated by strangers on social media and men in bear spaces, but in private he felt disconnected from his body. During the time we spent together, he was going through a heavy bout of body dysmorphia due to steroid withdrawal, as the drugs he'd taken to attain his "perfect" body shape had been provided (and then withheld) by his master. I can't help but think that Jack might still be here if not for everything his body went through while he was working so hard to attain the approval of the one person who mattered most to him.

I hope that Jack's passing inspires people in our communities to dialogue and think more critically on the topics of body dysmorphia (and the danger of enabling it), silicone, and abusive relationships. I try not to judge people's decisions about their bodies, and generally support everyone's right to self-actualize through surgery and body modification. But there's a point at which body positivity can obfuscate what's really happening, which is turning a blind eye to unhealthy and dangerous behavior. Likewise, while I fully support everyone's freedom to participate in consensual dom/sub relationships, it's not okay to ignore warning signs of harmful, toxic relationship dynamics just because it's within the context of BDSM.

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Keep an eye out for your friends, and try to be there for them when they need you, even if it means voicing an unpopular opinion. R.I.P. Jack. 💔

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